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Saturday, December 31, 2005

Well, well, well. Another year has gone by. Well, at least we all survived this one. I don't know what any of you are doing for the new year, but me? I'm staying home, eating and watching some of my favorite DVD's. Yep, and that's just fine with me. I'll be ringing in the new year with Leonardo Dicaprio, Johnny Depp, Antonio Bandaras and Buffy and Angel and that's juuuuuust fine by me.

It's also my mom's birthday today. So, it's double the (pretty non-existent) party. She is also content to sit home, eat and watch her BBC mysteries. *eye roll* Though me and sis did take her out for lunch.

A couple friends and my sis can join in the fun, but actually, spending money I don't have to go out is not on my list of things to do.

So, whatever it is you do to ring in the new year, enjoy yourself and have a HAPPY 2006!

And have a drink on me. Lords knows we need it.

Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 7:40 PM   5 buffy fans
Friday, December 30, 2005
Day by Day pt. 2
I'm still getting use to not seeing Scarlett. Every now and then I have a moment where I remember to go look for her--but she's not there anymore. So, I decided to turn to music like I did in the past to sort of heal. At any rate, I put some new songs in my itunes music library. Here's some new ones:

"A Sorta Fairytale" Tori Amos
"Cornflake Girl" Tori Amos
"Nobody's Home" Avril Lavigne
"Boulevard of Broken Dreams" Greenday
"Here Without You" 3 doors down
"Fly Away" Lenny Kravitz
"Overcome" Live
"Voodoo People" Prodigy
"Full of Grace" Sarah Mclachlan
"I Will Remember You" Sarah Mclachlan
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 8:04 PM   2 buffy fans
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Day by Day

I want to thank everyone who shared their hugs and well wishes to me after Scarlett's death. It meant a lot to me. I love you guys. I never thought about the day that she wouldn't be here. It never occured to me. I cried off and on and wish it didn't hit me so hard, but I loved her and I know our strength for her kept her going. Sigh. I'm really going to miss her. *Sniff* Oh, Scarlett. Peace be with you. *sob*

Fortunetly, my sister came by with Karaoke Revolution while I was playing Splinter Cell (which I finished) I'm not one for dance/music games, but I really, REALLY enjoyed this.

The best part? It took my mind off Scarlett for a little while and brightened my day. It was fun, despite the horrid singing. And yes, it was horrid. Here's a quick list of the songs I sang:

"Broken Wings" Mister Mister
"Girls Just Wanna Have Fun" Cyndi Lauper
"Are You Happy Now?" Michelle Branch
"You're The One That I Want" Grease Soundtrack
"I'm Coming Out" Diana Ross

And for the (embarrasing) record, Broken Wings sounded as if someone was strangling me while I sang it. Really, that is not a good Karaoke song for someone with my talent. But it was funny because it was so bad. I still had loads of fun.

It was a good way for me to focus on something else.
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 1:31 AM   4 buffy fans
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Goodbye, Little Scarlett

June 1, 19??- December 28, 2005

Scarlett died sometime last night. I can't stop crying when I think about her. She was part of our family. Me, and my mom especially looked out for her. Chasing off other cats. Looking for her when it got cold, giving her treats and keeping her company. She liked to rub against our legs and she meowed when she saw us. I'm really, really sad.

I'm just so happy that she found her way to us before she got too sick to walk. I'm happy that she was with us in her final days and that we could keep her warm, safe and comfortable. I'm happy that I was able to rub her and give her some human contact and that she enjoyed every ear scratch and fell asleep against my leg. I'm happy that I know what happened to her and don't have to wonder where she was when she died.

We buried her in our backyard.

I'm still crying right now and it's going to feel so odd not going out looking for little Scarlett. But she is at peace now and she knew she was loved. I wish I could stop crying when I think of her.




Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 12:15 AM   7 buffy fans
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
On to the next thing
How was everyone's holiday? Mine was okay. I tried not to worry about Scarlett, I cried over her last night while she fell asleep against me. *SNIFF* I don't know how I'm going to handle it when she goes.

Anyway, me, mom, sis and plenty of aunts and my grandma gathered at my grammy's house and it was cool this year because we gathered early. We used to get things started at 10pm and we'd all be sleepy and partied out and that was just too late. So, since we started earlier, like 5pm we got to hang longer.

Yes, it is lame that by midnight I'm ready to go to sleep. Well, I'm not in my twenties anymore. And that REALLY sucks. But we had plenty of food to go around with the gifts and we watched It's a Wonderful Life which I hadn't seen in a couple of years.

I got Resident Evil 4 for my birthday, but currently I'm finishing up Splinter Cell. What's that? Yes, I like video games. So what?
Sam Fisher is, for a video game character anyway.

Well, I'm just dropping a line because I'm about to go out with my mom. She needs help buying an MP3 player. So, adios!
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 12:36 AM   2 buffy fans
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Six degress of blogging

What I've noticed while blogging is that I keep coming across the same bloggers over and over. Which is nice, don't get me wrong, but it was interesting as well. I comment a lot on people's blogs, and even if I don't comment I usually read the comments and I noticed I was seeing the same names and/or names and profile pics.

For example, I'd go to Kristy's blog and I'd see ramblin girl's comment, and then maybe I'd go to her blog and I'd see terri's comments and beadinggalinms comments or HDD. Or I'd go to Undr's blog and see Chrish or Mean Girl (who has Faith from Buffy the Vampire Slayer as her profile pic so she gets extra props), and so on and so on and for some strange reason it's a nice familiar feeling, like we're all real good friends who stop by and vist often. Coming in for coffee and cake and tea or something.

It's actually nice to keep running into the same people because then you can keep up with their stories and trials and whatever else they have going on. But it was still interesting that I would go to the same, say, five or six blogs and run into the same group of fifteen people or so, like we're all traveling in the same circle of blogs. Hee hee.

I don't know about anyone else, but that's really how I find other blogs, through comments. If someone has a comment I like or find funny, I'll visit their blog and probably keep going back, especially if I keep seeing their name a lot. But it's nice because now I have a few more people I can add to my blog links. Those are people I visit all the time, so I link them. Other people I bookmark, but the people in my links are the places I go most often. I like your blogs to be convienient.

Also, if I don't hear from you guys until after Christmas...

Have a Holly Jolly Holiday
and a Very Merry Christmas!
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 11:49 AM   6 buffy fans
Friday, December 23, 2005
blog filler
This is just something I saw on a friends website. Thought I'd use it on my blog. Feel free to answer these questions on your own blog or in my comments. I'd really like to know. Really. You know I would. And the first person I'm tagging is Undr. *wink*

Name: Gunngirl

Childhood ambition: To be a writer and a veternarian. (yeah, yeah, I know)

Fondest childhood memory: Watching olympic trials and Samuari Sunday with my ma.

Last thing I bought was: The DVD "Desperado" with Antonio Bandaras

Favorite movie(s): Aliens, Dirty Dancing and The Talented Mr. Ripley

I wanna be reincarnated into this animal: Cheetah, or maybe Tiger. I haven't deciced.

My best Christmas present was: I'm going way back to a barbie kitchen set that I played the hell out of.

All I want for Christmas is: DVD's, and for my stray, Scarlett, to get better. *sniff*

My headstone will read: Here lies Gunngirl. Rest in peace, she will.
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 9:01 PM   4 buffy fans
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Black Christmas
My poor stray cat is sick. Very sick. I don't know what's wrong with her but I have a bad feeling it's Feline Chronic Renal Failure (CRF) She's been sleeping in our basement, that is warm and dry, since it's been really cold and snowy. But last week she stopped eating and is drinking very little.

She used to be picky about the food, so we just figured she was being picky again, but after a couple of days, we got worried. Then she got on the couch and just sits there. She won't even get up to greet us like she used too. She has definetly lost weigh and is definetly not her usual self. She is wobbly and seems to be limping a little, but she did hurt a back foot a couple years ago. She did get off the couch today and went and sat in front of the furnace. She can walk, but is slow and wobbly sometimes.

With three other cats I can't exactly afford to take her to the vet. Which might be doable since she let me her pet and rub her for the first time since we've had her (at least six years and counting). I figured if I could rub her I could somehow get her into a carrier and take her somewhere, but I'm worried about the cost.

And if I take her to a shelter they'll figure I'm dropping her off and don't want her. I know there is no such thing as free vet care, but this is what I'm thinking: Most of the shelters I've researched will adopt a pet out for $75. I don't know what kind of medical treatment she might need, but if I took her somewhere maybe she could get treated then I can adopt her which would be cheaper than actually taking her to a vet.

I'm so worried about her, and unfortunetly CRF is fatal and there is no cure. I don't know if that's the case, but it sure seems like that is what she has. She hasn't exactly had a great life, living on the Chicago streets and all. We tried to give her the best life we could.

What do you think I should do? Do you think my attempt at free/low cost vet care is doable? Any suggestions? I thought about calling a vet but it'll probably be the same as when you call a doctor, they all can't tell you anything unless you come in. I'm not even sure what the treatment for CRF costs and I can't seem to find out. But it can't be less than $75.

ARRGH! *Cry*
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 12:34 AM   7 buffy fans
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Time for a sleigh ride--and I'm in front!
I took this little quiz, and surprisenly it's pretty accurate. Interesting. If you have twenty seconds to spare, why don't you take it and let me know which reindeer you are?

You Are Rudolph

Sweet and shy, you tend to be happiest when you're making someone else happy.

Why You're Naughty: You sometimes stick that nose where it doesn't belong

Why You're Nice: Christmas would be a sad affair without you!
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 5:01 PM   2 buffy fans
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Brokeback Mountain

Aside from Chronicles of Narnia, Fun with Dick and Jane and The Libertine, I want to see Brokeback Mountain. I saw the trailer a long time ago and didn't know what was going on. Actually, I found the trailer boring because I couldn't get the gist of the story from it and was like 'huh? I don't know what the tragedy is. I'm confused.' Yes, I'm usually like Jerry Seinfeld in watching movies: 'Is he with them? I thought he wasn't with them? Why did they shoot him?' Thus, I need explanation.

So, after my sis told me that there were some goings on on the mountain, and these two guys had this secret and then it didn't end so happily-ever-after I got interested. It helped that I'm a fan of both Ledger and Gyllenhaal. I liked Ledger in A Knight's Tale and 10 Things I Hate About You, and I liked Gyllenhaal in Donnie Darko, Jarhead, and The Good Girl.

And now that I know even more about the story I'm even more interested, and further still, now that I've read the short story I'm very intrigued. In case you don't know, the movie is based on a short story by Anne Proulx that won a Pulitzer and was published in the New Yorker.

It's about two cowboys who get a job wrangling sheep and end up falling in love and forming a very deep connection on the vast serene solitude of the Wyoming and Texas mountainsides. When they leave 'Brokeback Mountain' they don't forget what happened there but since this is 1963 and not Queer as Folk, they stifle those feelings; both get married, have children and watch those marriages go up in smoke.

They meet up occasionally for 'fishing trips' during a 20-year stretch that is ripe with confusion, longing, intense feelings, anger, joy and a deep hole that can never be filled. They want to be together so bad, but don't know how and fear the consequences if anyone found out.

I've said before I like Forbidden Love and this is no exception. I like intense romance and sacrifice and lines like 'I wish I knew how to quit you' and passion between two people that is so strong and burning it hurts your eyes to look at them. To be honest, I wouldn't be able to get into it if it were two women. Unless it's Bound, possibly. But for some reason I feel it is more intense with two men than two women.

Lesbian relationships have never interested me, nor have I ever seen one with heat and belivable passion, except for the aforementioned movie.

This movie is only out in NY and L.A. now so I haven't seen it yet, but I'm waiting on it. It's getting good reviews, and a strange one from Roger Ebert who seemed to give it four stars then in a 1-minute movie critic review give it two stars. (???) But in the end he really liked it. I can't wait to see it.
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 11:00 AM   4 buffy fans
Monday, December 19, 2005
Happy Birthday To Me!
Today is my birthday. As usual, once you start to get older you wish you could turn back the clock. This birthday is not so jolly because suddenly the day before I got queasy, and a headache and nausea and threw up. It wasn't pretty. So, I'm not a Happy Birthday Puppy right now and am not in a Party Zone. I actually want to go back to bed, or at the very least lounge around the house. So, even though I can't drop it like it's hot and sing 'it's my birthday, get busy' it's still my B-Day, soooo...

Happy Birthday To Me!

Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 10:30 AM   9 buffy fans
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Why, no Virginia, there isn't a Santa Claus
In post news, a teacher told her students that there is no Santa Claus. The parents are besides themselves and the school received complaints for a while.

She told this to a bunch of first graders. Well, I don't think she should have done that, and I'm sure she regrets it now, but I'm glad it didn't turn into a big thing. She sure didn't need to be fired, which she didn't, thank god.

With so much hoopla about people wanting to change the phrase "Merry Christmas" to "Happy Holidays" I just hate all this PC stuff. I mean, I say Merry Christmas because that's what I usually say. Strangely, I find myself saying Happy Holidays to people in the street, at the grocers, wherever because subconsciously I guess I think I should say that.

But I don't want anyone to tell me, "Oh, it's not alright to say Merry Christmas anymore because you might offend someone." Ptooey! to that!

Also, I love Sliders, in case you don't already know, and they have one Christmas episode that I usually watch every year. It's called Seasons Greedings and the premise is that on this world the head of a mall uses subliminal Advertising to keep people shopping their brains out and keep their rates up 300%. Also, you can live in the mall, as there are schools, libraries and hospitals and if you work there you get $200 a day, $100 is taken for housing, $80 you MUST spend in the mall each day. The workers get a debit card, are underhandly forced into spending, go into debt and can't leave the mall if you can't pay it back in full on demand.

It's one of my favorite episodes from Season Three of Sliders.
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 11:30 AM   6 buffy fans
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Cartoons and Booze. A winning combination

There are years where I want the holidays to just go away. I'm half and half this year. And while I know christmas isn't all about presents my best christmases was when I was able to give lots of gifts. I like buying presents for other people.

But other things I like about the holidays are holiday episodes of my favorite shows and my favorite holiday cartoons. Here, for your reading pleasure, are my top five holiday cartoons:

1. How The Grinch Stole Christmas
2. A Charlie Brown Christmas
3. Frosty the Snowman
4. Rudolph the Rednosed Reindeer
5. Olive, the Other Reindeer

And since I missed a post yesterday, here's the drink I had last night:

2 oz. Light Rum
1/2 Lime
1 Teaspoon Sugar
Mint Leaves

And the one I'm having right now:

Big Chill

1 1/2 oz Dark Rum
1 oz Pineapple Juice
1 oz Orange Juice
1 oz Cranberry Juice
1 oz Cream of Coconut
1 cup Ice

(But I didn't add the Coconut)
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 2:50 PM   3 buffy fans
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
I just want to say I was sad to hear about Richard Pryor. May he rest in peace. I enjoyed him over his movie career years. I especially liked Brewsters Millions and Stir Crazy. He was one funny Motherf**ker. :)

Also, if you don't know, I'm having one new drink a day leading up to my BD Monday. Tonight's drink is:

Frozen Daiquiri

1 1/2 oz Light Rum
1/ oz Triple Sec
1 1/2 oz Lime Juice
1 tsp Sugar
1 cup Ice

Haven't had it yet, but sounds good, doesn't it?
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 3:20 PM   2 buffy fans
Monday, December 12, 2005
Older and Wiser or Just Older?
Today is the seven day countdown to my birthday. Not that I'm jumping for joy for it anything. If I were turning 21 it'd be a different story--but I'm not. But it's coming whether I want it too or not, so I figure I might as well either ignore it or drink to it.

I decided to drink AND ignore it at the same time.

So, I'm drinking at least one new drink a day or night, depending on the circumstances. I might drink more than one of something but I decided to mix in at one new one in the mix.

This is what I fixed today, and mind you it was at twelve in the afternoon. Yes, I get my drunk on early.

Grinch Guillotine

1 oz. Benedictine
1 oz. Gin
1/2 oz. Lemon juice
1/2 tsp. sugar

I didn't really like it. I picked it mainly because of the word Grinch. Get it? It's close to Christmas, not that I'm a Grinch or anything, and that is also my favorite Christmas Cartoon. But more on those later.
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 3:17 PM   1 buffy fans
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Mmm, Cookies

Well, the title of the blog is lost on all of you I'm sure, because it's a line from BtVS. Dawn said "Mmm, Cookies" when she felt the name of demon rhymed with it.

Uh, not that you care, so moving on.

Anyway, I really want to decorate cookies this Christmas. Am I good at it? No. I made some a couple of years ago, and if I'd been blogging then I would have posted a picture of them. I like decorated Christmas Cookies and I like decorating them.

When my mom had foster kids me and my sis made a gingerbread house with one of the little girls. Sniff. I miss her so much, but it was fun times. Now I wish I had a little girl of my own to do that with. Uh, is a clock ticking somewhere? and how did we get on that topic?

Ahem. So, I want to make sugar cookies and/or butter cookies and I'd like to decorate them. I guess they're going to be as basic as I can get them as I have no cookie decorating talent. I have the cutouts though, so that's a start.

On second thought, maybe I should just buy them from the store.

At any rate, I'm in a somewhat nice mood only because "Lexmas" (Smallville) is on tonight. I love Smallville and TV shows have always gotten me through tough, stressful times, and I need my TV shows now.

Anyway, if I bake/decorate those cookies I'll let you know.
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 2:52 PM   4 buffy fans
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Tis The Season for Bras and Panties

I watched the Victoria Secret Fashion Show last night on CBS. I must say, I enjoyed myself. It was much better than year before last, a lot more fast paced, much more fun outfits, and best of all, Seal singing "Crazy."

The show didn't air last year because of the Janet's boob accident, so because of indecency hoopla, they decided scantily clad models in underware is just too much for our fragile American eyes I guess. Whatever. I think that's so stupid. I think there was much more to worry about than a 2 second shot of a bare breast.

Anyway, I'm no fan of models, as most are either idiots, foreign or both. I mean, why are half of them from Brazil? However, I thought the show was very nice, liked how they worked in the Christmas theme with candy, toys, toy soldiers, etc. I wish I looked like that in my underware. Unfortunetly, every time men see women like this it makes us regular women very uncomfortable I suppose, because they drool and wish we looked like that.

Well, I have to say, I do wish I looked that, it'll be a very much easier life for one thing. However, all I can do is work on me and work with what I have. But I still enjoyed the show and didn't go on a I Hate Model's tirade. LOL. I guess that's surprising for some people that a woman enjoyed the show, but I did.

Though I didn't see the 12 million dollar bra because I was also trying to watch L&O: SVU. (If anyone watched it can you tell me who was the person driving the car that dumped the little boy?) I missed that last little part.
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 12:42 PM   2 buffy fans
Monday, December 05, 2005
I Want to be Made
There's a show on MTV called Made. I watch it from time to time and enjoyed a handfull of the shows.

One girl wanted to be Made into a cheerleader, another a rockstar, a few other chosen made personas included a BMX'er, an opera singer, a member of the school dance team, a soccer player, class president, beauty queen, actress and ladies man.

Now, I don't watch MTV often. As they are officially a non-music station, seriously, when was the last time they actually showed a video there? The channel sucks now, and is now the reality show station for the teen/early twenty set.

However, there are a couple shows that I can stand to watch and Made is one of them. They had a marathon of episodes last night where this overweight gay teen wants to be made into a Soccer player on his school team.


I'd like to be made into a millionaire, but that's not an option.

However, if I were 16 and were to write the show to be made into something, these would be my top three choices:

1. Published Author
3.The star in a musical

What's your top 3 made choices? C'mon, don't be shy.
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 12:52 PM   4 buffy fans
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Sniff. Drip. Sneeze
I have terrible allergies. Which is why the eye fiasco happened. I finally realized that I should get something over the counter for them (idiot!) and went to do it. My mistake is that I wanted to run in the drug store and run out. It was dark and cold outside and I wanted to go back home.

So, I go in and find Claritin, which has 5 tablets that you take one daily. I'm thinking, 'but I want a prolonged dossage' I mean, I figure after 5 days I'd be up the creek again. So, I see the store brand with 48 tablets and figure that's better, even though you have to take 1-2 every 4-6 hours--and they cost the same as the Claritin. I buy those and I'm out the door. I

I looked at the Non-drowsy formula and I think my mind skipped or something because I then just grabbed any one of the store brand and left, not really letting it register that I should buy the non-drowsy. I got home and took them ASAP and now, right now, I can barely keep my head up.

I'm such an idiot! I have 48 tablets and now I can only take them at bed time. *sigh* On the upside, they're working. Seriously, I was like the nerdy kid at school who's allergic to everything, sniffing, sneezing, watery, itchy eyes. It was not a pretty picture.

It's only 6:30 pm and I want to go to bed. Thank goodness there's isn't anything on TV tonight I want to watch.

Oh well I...zzzzzzz... *pop* Oh, sorry, I dozed off for a second. Anyway, I gotta go. I'm cooking and I'm not exactly watching it. Burning/overcooking food seems to be what I do best.

On the second upside, I got to see some of the movie "Dragon Heart" staring Dennis Quaid. I really, really liked that movie. It's actually very heartwarming and sad. I hadn't seen it in a long time and I was reminded how much I love it.
Gunngirl believed The Truth is still Out There at 6:36 PM   8 buffy fans
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