I haven't been here in I don't know when. My all MJ immersion continues as I have learned his official COD is "Acute Propofol Intoxication" and has been ruled a Homicide. I don't know what was going on with Murray, what he was thinking, incompetence, just stupid, was framed, I don't know but he sure has a doosey on his hand in forever being the man who "Killed Michael Jackson"
I am in no mood to really post anything. I have sort of drifted away from the land of blog as my grief over Michael Jackson has not subsided and is showing no signs of lifting me from my world that includes him him in it on a daily basis. I think of him before I go to bed and when I wake up--still. My mourning is better, but as more details come to light my grief comes in waves. I am happy and laughing over something he said or did that is cute, as he was often cute and light hearted.
Then next I'm crying for his life and the father his kids miss. I wanted many more years with Michael. I wanted to see his dream to finish This Is It and then spend more time with his kids. That will never be now. I still love him more than ever. And the more I learn of little details of his life, his personal and public life I love him even more.
I don't care who thinks I'm crazy. I have found a lovely bunch of ladies on a forum that I visit daily and they understand. Had it not been for them I don't know how I would have stood my grief and pain. I was feeling so tense, so pent up with wanting to talk, discuss, cry, laugh that I felt like I was going crazy. I really did feel that way. I could feel myself growing more and more intense. I feel like they saved my life in a way. I am grateful for being able to connect with people who felt that level of pain, who also think about him daily, who want justice for him.
It is a great feeling to be able to talk incessantly about him and not be judged. Thanks guys!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL! YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN 51 YEARS OLD. I LOVE "YOU" MOST! YOU WILL FOREVER BE MISSED AND NEVER FORGOTTEN. YOU WILL LIVE IN ON IN ALL OF US BUT MORE THAN THAT YOU WILL LIVE ON FOREVER. YOUR STAR WILL SHINE ON IN ETERNITY. THANK YOU FOR THE MEMORIES, YOUR PASSION, YOUR LOVE, AND FOR SHARING YOUR TALENTS WITH THE WORLD. YOU WERE SIMPLY SO GREAT THAT I DON'T THINK THE WORLD KNEW WHAT TO DO WITH YOU. I LOVE YOU.
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